Lord, I am
becoming alienated from common experience,
from the
modern world, from politics I cannot stomach, religious leaders
I will not
follow, promises I never trust, a culture I find malignant,
malicious to its depths, a fallen spirit is consuming everything in
its path behind its false face
marketing and
its commercial shallows suffocating everything of grace and beauty.
It's not that
I think I am alone without common cause, or that I am
especially
unique, or particularly special; I am certainly no better than some
and less bad
than others, but I cannot care about what passes for caring
in a world
fixated on security, on the keeping of the wolf from the door
that opens
only to me and mine: a world terrified of the other,
a state of
affairs machinated into being
by masters of
war and manufacturers of poverty.
I have no
home Lord, not in a province becoming bungalow upon town house upon
neighbourhood
upon subdivision, sprawl upon sprawl spreading like a virus,
the banality
of evil subsuming woodlots, forests, creeks, streams, rivers, ponds:
the natural
world of my childhood, eviscerated by the mundanities of sameness,
by streets
that could be lost anywhere in North America, by big box plazas and
stores of
identical looks and products and prices built on the wage slavery
of third
world misery, places I refuse to enter, thresholds I refuse to cross,
profiteers I
refuse to aid and abet, privateers whose crown charters should be
revoked and their hold on the commerce of the commonwealth broken
forever.
And I am just
as alienated from my nation, Father. I was twelve when Canada
celebrated
its first
century, I came of age certain we would change the world for the
better,
but now I
find Canadians slouching towards our sesquicentennial
like the
beast towards Bethlehem hoping to be born as a succubus
on the tar
sands of Isengard, while the Just Society staggers
towards
oblivion hand in hand with the Whore of Babylon
pimped by the
minions of Mammon in Don Cherry jackets
and Harper
hair-helmets rolling up the rim to lose ourselves
among the
litter on the road to the hell of our best intentions.
Canada
dismays me, betrays me, Lord
we have
become a self-satisfied people
resting on
the laurels of our predecessors, while
we surrender
our rights and freedoms to oligarchs
coming for
our water, our land and our air: debt enslaved,
we do what we
are told, not because we are too polite to resist,
but because
we bought into the low-end dream of 'nation as' beer ad;
more
interested in the outcome of hockey games than in the natural world
about to
evict our species for trashing the place. I have no home in the
Canada
that is
defined by a coffee chain named after a drunk driving Maple Leaf
who killed
himself in a car crash; we have developed the souls of
fast food
franchises, Lord whose products would actually prevent anyone from
ever
becoming an
Olympian if they lived off the crap that is served every day using
temporary
foreign workers and dead end wage earners who can't feed, shelter or
clothe themselves or their families on the pay they get from their
billionaire bosses.
We pride
ourselves as a nation on our compassion in times of global disasters
Father,
but then
refuse to face the realities of life for the disenfranchised
at home and
around the world, we lack the courage to challenge the rich
and so sell
out everyone below us on the food chain so that
the people
who run the world don't take away what they allow us:
we are a
nation of moral cowards, but this too shall pass.
And it will
pass because You buried within us
the mutually
beneficial creatures that humans are inexorably becoming.
Older
generations like mine may be busy
dying into
the husks of our lost causes, but the young are busy
being born
into humanity's best shot at redemption;
because all
the answers already exist, Sermon on the Mount answers
no more
complex than the cooperative lessons of Sesame Street;
answers no
more complicated than just enough people refusing to remain idle,
refusing to
become prey of economic predation,
defying the
ways and means of greed.
You know,
better than I Father, that our young will arrive at the tipping point
together,
inside or
outside their boxes, crossing the single axle of time, in time,
because once
tipped, nothing will be the same, ever,
and all that
once seemed insurmountable will become history.
That is my
hope, my trust; the remnant of my defiance:
some of the
young will rise as we fall, they will cross the fulcrum
of Social
Darwinism; and a small but significant portion will become other
in the heart
beat of the evolutionary instant and after that,
they will
raise their children as symbiotic lifeforms on a symbiotic planet;
as new
creatures in a new creation, in a world without end. Amen.